| Hmm...what to say about myself?Lets start with basic info. My name is Katarina.I won't tell you where i life,or any personal info except i know you in real life.I have one situation.About 4 years ago i started receiving mails on my home address.The guy or girl started writing bad things,first to my sister only,and then too me.The last 2 letters have assaulting content.The person is telling us that he will hurt my sis and me.So i really don't want anyone to know anything. I live in the city which is,in my opinion,very,very stupid.People listen to turbo folk,they are like clones,and they don't respect people who are different from them.They are scared of people in black.(they mean punkers,"emos",goths and others). I like to talk with people.I like to make new friends.But...Almost all of my "friends" disappointed me at some point.They were using me.They were using my abilities.I love to do makeup,hair.I like to draw and make clothes.I love photography.That's why they were using me.For that.And then,when i said no once,they just started acting like I'm someone they don't know.That I'm someone that is not worth their attention. I past year and a half many things played their part with my emotions.Now I can cry if my mom tells me that I did something wrong,and that thing wasn't important,at all. I cried many times.I cry every day because i can't be with person I love.I don't have that kind of bravery to tell him.I wouldn't handle one more disappointment...But how to handle crying?I don't know.I just keep on crying. Maybe now you think that I'm "emo"?Yeah,why not?That's not bad thing...Usually. I don't cut my wrists(nor anything else)and I surely won't kill myself one day. Life is hard.But we must keep living.For our beloved persons.No matter it is hard.That's life.Painful,rough. I told to my friend once: "I would like to be someone else...Or just disappear." but,now, I realized that it was selfish. The biggest problem for me is that I have to watch people I love suffer.Every time I see someone crying my, heart breaks.For a while I didn't feel.Anything.I want that to come to me again.It would be easier.Am i selfish again? |
najzad!
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always pretending to be strong makes one forget ones true face...
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always pretending to be strong makes one forget ones true face...
btw,c'est moi,yoki-chan sa emo corner-a
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~shiawase desu
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You are the only "you"
There is no such thing as your replacement
Don't wilt away, my one flower.
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always pretending to be strong makes one forget ones true face...
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always pretending to be strong makes one forget ones true face...
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